TRYING SOMETHING: This new Google-powered version of Blogger -- transparent to most of you, I'm sure -- lets me use labels for my posts. Could be interesting. Instead of creating 73 new blogs, I can just use different labels. For example, this post will be labeled "Housekeeping," a category wherein I can post general blather about blog administration and other shit you won't care to read. I'm also keen to start a series of posts about my workout routine, general healthiness, etc. (File also under "Stuff You Won't Read," right?) Anyway, just wanna see 'zactly how this new software implements the label. So this post is part administrivia, and part test. (In the event of a real post, you would be instructed to go straight to your basement and eat any crackers you could find in the cupboards.)

IF I WAS MAKING A MIX TAPE, VOL. 1: Here are some songs I'm into of late...

"These Days," Gregg Allman
You don't have to be a hippie or a Southern Fried Rocker to appreciate this ironic, wistful ode to getting older, slowing down, and keeping on.

"9 to 5," Lady Sovereign
Brit hip-hop chick with an attitude, sort of like if a 15-year-old Anabela Lwin found rap instead of Malcolm McLaren way back when.

"Pin Your Wings," Copeland
There's very little that passes for rich, intellectual rock these days. It's either minimalist indie-stuff, or teenie-bombast, or...I can't find it. Love Copeland, and love this song which, for me, channels the old supergroup Asia.

"That's That Shit," Snoop Dogg
Total comic-hop, hands wavin', nah-mean? I know I shouldn't like the Snizzle Dizzle, but I can't help it. Holla at a player!

"Honey & The Moon," Joseph Arthur
Hopeful heartache, beautiful tragedy, pressing on a bruise, just like I always like.

"In the Sun," Michael Stipe (feat. Chris Martin)
Here's Stipe at his finest, covering Joseph Arthur with the help of Mr. Paltrow.

THAT NAME IS CALLED RECIDIVISM: I've stumbled across RAISING ARIZONA a few times on cable of late, and I'm starting to think this may be the best movie ever made, or at least among them. It's so rich, so full of great lines and moments and performances...well, my capacity for viewing it seems bottomless. I'm half-tempted to buy a DVD player and a monitor and put 'em on a table somewhere with this movie on endless repeat-play.

THE MEANING OF SNOW: "Daddy, do you like snow?"

Pause. Silence.

"Daddy?"

"Not really, C.J."

"You don't like snow angels? You don't like snow men? You don't like snowballs? You don't like playing in the snow with me?"

"You're right, C.J. I like snow."

SHOCKER! Lindsay Lohan may not be the sharpest knife in the drawer.

I LIKE YOU. YOU LIKE ME? I've long been a fan of George Saunders. His CIVILWARLAND IN BAD DECLINE and PASTORALIA are two of my favorite works of fiction in recent memory. In the latest NEW YORKER, Saunders writes a bracing satire of the BORAT phenomenon, essentially reminding us that cruelty, real bitter searing cruelty is at the core of the film. Still, I can't help but wonder: Did Saunders reach this realization in the middle of a gut-wrenching, tear-inducing laugh convulsion, as I did?

A lot of funny is mean. Alas, a lot of mean is not funny. Where do you weigh in on BORAT?

Update: Here's critic extraordinaire Anthony Lane on BORAT. Nize.

THE ONE CAT I DO LIKE: I was Amazon-surfing last night -- and truth be told I find riding the recommendation engine around Amazon more entertaining than most TV shows and movies -- and I discovered that our pal Cat Stevens has a new record out, albeit under his Yusuf Islam moniker. Fine. Nice. (Hear Borat say it: "Nize!")

Oh yeah: I'm at the Four Seasons in Houston. Work. Not bad after a week with the family, riding in the car and sleeping in the same bed and pretty much wearing each other.

Anyway, the new Stevens/Islam stuff sounds pretty nice, and it inspired me to go iTunes-surfing through his back-catalog. Next thing you know I'm downloading TEA FOR THE TILLERMAN and TEASER AND THE FIRECAT and almost feeling like I've discovered a great new artist, it's been so long since I've heard this stuff. "But I Might Die Tonight." "On the Road to Find Out." "Miles from Nowhere." Just great stuff.

Wonder who I should rediscover next...

WHY WOULD ANYONE WANT TO PLAY FOR HIM? Bob Knight has more apologists than any other major-league jerk I can think of. The question is not whether or not Knight was in the wrong when he smacked player Michael Prince in the jaw. Even Jay Bilas and Dick Vitale, while spinning as hard as they can in Knight's favor on ESPN, admit he probably shouldn't have put his hands on a player. In other words, he was wrong. The big story is whether or not Knight deserves discipline -- either from the NCAA, or from Texas Tech. My take: He deserves discipline from high school players, who should be smart enough not to go to school at Texas Tech and play for a guy who, although not criminal, is clearly a bully, an asshole, and a narcissist.

If you haven't seen the videotape of the incident, have a look. There's a key moment, and it's not what you think. It's not when Knight smacks Prince. It's not when Prince flexes his jaw, clearly feeling pain. Nope. It's when another nearby adult, likely a Texas Tech coach or trainer, sees the incident take place and clearly looks away in disgust. His look is nothing if not a "there he goes again" look. We all know who Bob Knight is by now, don't we?

BLOWIN' YOUR MIND AND YOUR BOOTY: Check out ol' Brooke Hogan (mentioned in the previous post) and her proud papa, the Hulkster. Can you freakin' imagine if this were your life? Hulk is your dad, and he's got you all tarted up as a hip-hop ho', all the while serving as your steroided-up carnival barker hype man? Lordy.

Like I said, girl's got a killer song, if you like the genre (pre-fab hip-hop). She do. And I do.

SHE'S A MAN, BABY! One of my habits as I drive around in rental cars in various cities is to find the local urban/dance station and crank it up real loud. Awwwwwww, yeah. You know how we do.

I'm not kidding.

Yesterday I heard what I thought was a great new urban/dance song, all over-the-top and dance-y and funny without meaning to be. I was totally digging it, right? So I listen closely, and I figure out it's probably called "About Us," on accounta the singer/rapper-girl says that phrase something like 73 times in the song.

Today I look the song up on iTunes, and holy shit: It's Brooke Hogan! The Hulkster's man-child daughter! Gnarly! I'm tellin' ya, the tune's actually pretty good. Granted, I can't bear to look at the girl for five seconds, but I'm way tempted to do some downloadin'.

I also grabbed me up some old Coolio and that newish Xtina Aguilera song.

FIRST-DRAFT AND ALL OVER THE BOARD: So yesterday I voted FOR our likely corrupt incumbent Dem governor, given that his opponent seemed slow-witted, equally corrupt, and just plain annoying. I voted AGAINST our incumbent Dem representative, just because of all the smug comments I've heard attributed to him, not to mention the fact that the guy keeps building bigger and bigger houses in our neighborhood as he earns his nominal salary as a public servant. (He won easily anyway.) I voted AGAINST the Dem running for Cook County Board president on little more than his father's name and corrupt legacy. (He won anyway, proving you can't beat the machine in Chicago.)

A little more about our congressman...the guy now lives in a roughly $1.5 to $2 million dollar home 'round the corner from us. His bootstrap story seems to preclude him coming from money. And yet he continues to be mentioned as owning significant real estate around our every gentrifying neighborhood, all the while complaining to a reliable fried of mine about all the "yuppies" moving in. Perhaps because he's Hispanic he thinks he's excluded from that category? Where is this guy getting all his big bucks, one wonders? He's not the only local politician who seems to have had unbelievable luck in real-estate "investments" over the years. (Not so long ago it was revealed that he was only paying a few hundred bucks a year in property taxes while the rest of us yuppies have been kicking in nearly $10K/year. Go figure.)

More randomness...

Don't really like anything I've seen of Pelosi. Talk about smug and self-important. Do like Barack Obama, thus far, so I hope his public presence continues to overwhelm hers, on the Dem side of the aisle. Not a Hastert fan either, so glad we'll see less of him.

Alright...time to for for a morning walk out here in Bellevue, WA. The sun is peaking through the fog, and there are more trees here than I've seen in ages.

MOVIE BLATHER: Just saw a really lame trailer for an upcoming movie, BLOOD DIAMOND. Dicaprio does one of the worst accents I've ever heard. Laughable. Reminds me of Steve Martin's attempt at THE PINK PANTHER.

Saw TALLADEGA NIGHTS on my flight. Unfortunately I ended up reading my magazine while glancing up every now and then, on accounta boredom. Pretty dumb, as expected. Still need to see LITTLE MISS SUNSHINE. Everybody says that's a good one. Can't remember the last time I saw a good movie.

TIME TO STOP THE G.O.P. I read that Clinton (figures) is the only (or first) Dem smart enough to make the most compelling (and true) argument available:

The Republicans can't handle a natural disaster (Katrina), a war (Iraq), or a scandal (Foley and the pages). They're the gang that can't shoot straight.

Also, for the record, to my friends on the Left: You were right, I was wrong.

I still believe in the idea that, in a post 9/11 world, there's a strong case to be made for pre-emptive military action in a place like Iraq. That's what I thought the war was all about. Turns out I was largely sold a bill of goods by a cabal of incompetents. Was I warned? Indeed I was. But...well...fool me twice, don't get fooled again. Enough's more than enough. I'm ashamed of my vote in the last presidential election. Ashamed in retrospect, of course. I meant well. Still, I'm going to have a tough time buying the same brand of government for a while.

My priorities for the next presidential election: Competent defense, a pro-science stem cell research policy, fiscal sanity, and a more comprehensive approach to health care.

My priority for tomorrow? Send a message.

WHEN LIFE GETS TOO HEAVY, WRITE LIGHT VERSE: Sitting at Starbucks, procrastinating. Supposedly "off" work today, but full up with emails and editing and logistical crap. Prolly about to get a parking ticket, too. Oh, and then there's the back rehab, then pick-up from school, then nanny issues, then broken stuff that needs to be fixed so it can break again, etcetera. Thank God I have no real problems. My invented and exaggerated ones are more than I can bear sometimes. Ugh, bear. Bears. Ugh.

Responsible thing to do? Toss off some verse, of course:

MORE WATER MORE THIRSTY
So much time spent
dreaming of more
time. And for what?
To have more
time to dream
of more time?

POLICE ARREST NUDE MAN WITH CONCEALED WEAPON: I'm not one to link to and/or forward "weird news" articles very often, but this story is just too good.

MIDWESTERN MELANGE: Some recent action from the COMMENTS that you don't want to miss...

An anonymous reader writes:

How many years does it take a guy to lose loyalty to his hometown teams and jump on a Chicago bandwagon. You make it sound like you have lived in Chicago your whole life. You can take the boy out of Hamiltucky..but you can't take the Hamiltucky out of the boy.

Fri Nov 03, 12:11:59 PM CST

My response:

Dear Anonymous:

Bandwagon? Prepare to learn...

I was born in Chicago in 1966 and lived here until 1974 or so. I lived in Hamiltucky from 1974 until 1982 or thereabouts. I lived in the Detroit area from 1982 until about 1989 or so, albeit with my college years ('80 - to '84) spent near Hamiltucky. I returned to Chicago in 1989 and have lived here since. Hence:

Chicago - ~25 years
Hamiltucky - ~8 years
Detroit - ~7 years

My sports allegiances are something of a mixed bag between Chicago and Detroit:

Baseball - Cubs
Basketball - Pistons
Football - Bears
Hockey - Red Wings

These allegiances were born in the heart rather than the head and are hard to explain. They probably have more to do with my parents and friends and with the rise and fall of the various sports franchises than they do with actual time "served" in any given town.

Please be advised that I was also a rabid Big Red Machine rooter in the middle '70s and actually had the good fortune to see Game 5 of the World Series in 1975. I'm much more of a Reds fan than I am a Tigers fan, and I'm also way more of a Bengals fan than I am a Lions fan, for whatever reason. Also, I cheer for Michigan over Ohio State, since they have better uniforms, a better campus, smarter alums, and a better fight song than the Bucks...

Fri Nov 03, 12:35:13 PM CST

PAGING ART LINKLETTER: Before we had children, my wife and I had the good fortune of having two beautiful Airedale Terriers. Bruno, the elder of the two, passed away before C.J. (our oldest son) was born. And Vladi, the younger of the two, passed away shortly after Mikey (our youngest son) came on the scene. (To be honest, I'm not certain I have the timing right. But I am certain it doesn't matter to this story.)

Both our boys are well aware that they were preceded in the house by these two eighty-pound furballs, as they've seen pictures and heard stories about the two "boys" we had before them.

A few mornings ago, Eileen and C.J. set out on an early-morning grocery store run. As they pulled into a parking spot, two large Airedales bounded into the window of the car next to them, panting and smiling as only Airedales can. My wife, thrilled, said to my son, "Look, C.J., look!"

"Is that God's car?" he asked.

IT'S NOT CHEATING IF EVERYONE DOES IT? I hate open secrets like this one. (A major league bullpen coach says Kenny Rogers definitely had pine tar on his hand last night.) Makes me feel so naive.

Nonetheless a great piece of reporting my Jon Heyman. Well done!

EMBEARASSING: Have there ever been a study into how people feel when their favorite sports team is getting embarassed on national television? As my Bears are now down 17-0...as they've just coughed the ball up *again*...I literally feel ill. Sick to my stomach. Nauseous. Etcetera.

I mean, I have a headache, a tummy ache, and a soul ache. It's horrible. I wish I could turn it off.

Luckily, as a Cubs fan, I keep thinking they'll turn it around any minute.

C'mon D. Hold that line! Hold that line!

Meanwhile Kornheiser and Theismann are absolutely painful to listen to. Blah blah blah.

YOU SAY FOMENTING, I SAY FERMENTING: Somewhere below in the COMMENTS, some anonymous soul opines that this blog has been "fomenting" for a while. Fomenting?

Anyway, point taken. Message to Anonymous: So glad you care.

What's on my mind as I sit here watching my beloved Bears laying an egg on Monday Night Football? I loathe Tony Kornheiser. That's one thought. I loathe Joe Theismann. That's another thought. What's wrong with my Bears? Another. Lou Piniella? Another.

Anyway, I can't help but think the Bears are one big defensive play -- interception, fumble, safety -- away from regaining momentum and disemboweling these lowly desert birds.

To think, somebody actually missed this empty blather. Ah, well. I'll get better.

WHEN I HEAR THE MUSIC, I GOT A PLACE TO GO: Took a solo trip down to HOB last night to see one of my favorite bands, Rancid.

No ticket, and sold out to boot. Crap. Hadda shell out $45 to get in.

("Hey, who's the old guy over there leaning against the bar, nursing his Budweisers?")

Well worth it! Man, these guys have to be one of the most underrated live acts around. Every time I see 'em I have fun, but last night was special, essentially a greatest hits set that found the boys sounding great, playing with spirit, and leading a frenzied crowd in what amounted to a two-hour singalong. From the "Roots Radicals" opener through the "Ruby Soho" encore (which was preceded by a truly special acoustic version of "Fall Back Down," especially poignant on the fifth anniversary of 9/11), the crowd was on its feet and in full voice.

Tim Armstrong is still a magnetic presence onstage, and one wonders if/when we'll see him onscreen. Matt Freeman must be one of the best live bassists around -- maybe only Mike Watt can touch him, and Flea looks like a pussy next to Freeman.

A night that reminded me of how much fun live music can be. It's been a while!

ANOTHER DOUBLE-EDGED SWORD: Should I be proud or ashamed of myself...that I've clearly created another Cub fan? 

WHEN LOVE MEANS LETTING GO: Come election time, it's quite possible I'm going to be aligned with Christopher Buckley and six other conservatives, who feel that the best thing for the future of the conservative movement is "a session in the "time-out" chair."

Of course if it ends up McCain vs. Clinton...hell, anybody vs. Clinton...all bets are off.

SHAME ON THE TIMES: A SLATE article that agrees with me -- that the Duke "rape" case has been a crock from the get-go, and that the NYT is an aider and abetter of lies -- is here.

BROTHERS: Despite Licky's drool-bead on his chin, this is a pretty cute shot. These two get a real kick out of each other, when they're not actually kicking each other. The picture tells a good story. C.J. is a big, sweet kid. Licky is a little dynamo who thinks he's the big brother. Makes for interesting days. 

UNCLE FUN: Yours truly gets a guest-shot with young Otto. The kid was thrilled, trust me.

 

THE LONELY FIRST BASEMAN: A great shot of my little #11 tending first base in his first year of real t-ball. Maybe not great in the concentration department yet, but he sure knows how to get dirty. 

 

JUST LIKE THE GRATEFUL DEAD: My two little drummer boys played a welcome concert for baby Otto last night. C.J., the older one, has some serious skills for four years old. I may have to buy him -- and me -- a real live drum set soon. 

 

'ELLO OTTO: The march of the male hormones continued in the Hess family this past weekend, as Otto Walter Hess made his happy human debut midday on Saturday.

Weighing in at a miniscule 6 lbs., 3 oz. (which happens to be exact same birth weight as your still-petite-to-this-day favorite blogger), this hirsute young "he" emerged happy, pleasantly pink, and possessed of some serious mutton chops. More than one family member suggested the lad looked like a Young Elvis, albeit with Old Elvis' energy level. Circumsions do that to you, I guess. God knows I'd take a heck of a nap after somebody snipped off a piece of my...

Nevermind.

A hearty congrats to my brother Casey and my sister-in-law Paula, the proud parents, as they enter the land of sleepless joy.

IN A WORD, PATHETIC: For reasons known to God alone, I woke up this morning with a raging headache, a sour stomach, and a sense of impending doom.

Granted, the sky was oppressive with rain, the barometer seemed to be playing jumprope in my skull, and I did drink three beers before bed, albeit after plenty of pasta, bread, salad, and cookies.

But I slept like seven hours. Straight. I ain't sick. And I've felt as good as a forty-year-old parent of two younguns under five can feel of late. Still, morning came and bitchslapped me awake like I insulted her. Why?

Who cares why. I hurt. And then the kids intervened...

Licky grabbed up C.J.'s fake vomit thingamajig and brought it over to me.

"Salchicha!" he squeaked, using the Spanish word for his favorite food, sausage. He thrust it in my face and mangled it against my mouth. "Salchicha!"

I really felt sick. Sick sick sick. "No, Licky!"

"Salchicha," he cried out, and then scrunched up the fake spew and shoved it in his mouth.

I am going to frickin' boot. Oh, God...

He continued to gnaw on the rubber upchuck as I fled to the bathroom.

I managed to compose myself, gulping deep breaths of air. Eileen rustled the miscreants into the car and they left for a grocery store or an amusement park or something. Didn't quite catch it.

Not long after they left I ran back into the bathroom. Something was coming...

"Aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh! Hooooooooaaaaaaah! Hwup! Hwup! Hoaaaaaaaah!"

I dry-heaved like ten times, but nothing came up. I sweated. I was cold. And then it was over. No boot, so time to scoot. I stood up...

...and I crumpled. Holy crap. In all the dry heaving I had thrown my back out. I balanced the top half of my body back onto the bottom half, and stepped gingerly back to the bed. My back was in full spasms.

Lord have mercy. My wife drank the same three cans of Miller Lite I did. And here I was considering some kind of Kevorkanian intervention, while she was off with the little monsters. Was it the beer? I wasn't even buzzed. Some weird viral invader?

Again, who knows.

Now I'm propped up at my Starbucks, trying to gather my brain and my digestive track and my back back into some semblance of working order.

I did skip my coffee yesterday, which I almost never do. Maybe I should get down on my knees and say sorry to the God of Starbucks. Something. Caffeine rehab?

So the morning's off to a rough start.

RIDING FREE: Last week at our park, C.J. came up to me with a strident request. "Daddy, take my training wheels off."

Okay, fine, I thought. The boy's only four years, four months old. But if he wants 'em off, well then, off they'll come. It'll be good for him to learn about falling and, even more important, about getting back up.

First try the kid zooms across the park, no prob, no wrecks. He can do it. (Granted, there was a minor crash a few days later. "Daddy, I crashed the pole and hurt my wee-wee.")

After his Wild Ride he is exultant. And he has another request:

"Daddy, now I want a trophy."

"A what?"

"A trophy, for being a big rider."

"Okey-doke."

So we went online and found a trophy shop. He picked out the one he wanted. "That big one!" And he helped me write the inscription:

"C.J. Hess Rides a Bike Without Training Wheels, August 15, 2006."

It showed up in the mail yesterday, and it hasn't been out of his hands since.

I wonder if it'll be in his dorm room or office someday.

COFFEE FLOWING UNDERGROUND: I've decided "Once In a Lifetime" is Talking Heads' best song, not that you asked.

I'm sitting in a Starbucks, about an hour before leaving for the airport with little Mikey (now 20 months and wild and senseless), and it hits me that probably the two most interesting record releases in recent memory are a product of the Starbucks/HearMusic alliance. There's an 80's-ish compilation with the Heads, New Order, Bowie, Echo, etc., and then there's also this great Marley comp. Well done. And the coffee ain't bad either.

MAYBE IT'S HIS HIS BRAIN THAT WAS LEFT BEHIND: This Tim LaHaye character, co-author of the wacky LEFT BEHIND fantasy series, is so nutty it's almost stupefying. I'm reading this article, and about every 15 seconds I'm thinking, "You've *got* to be freakin' kidding me!" Who takes this guy seriously? The answer: a whole fuckload of people do. Your neighbors. My neighbors. Our president? Dunno. I've never heard him weigh in, but it wouldn't suprise me.

DRESSED UP LIKE A MASTERPIECE: I've long been a fan of Josh Rouse. Back when I was at RollingStone.com I happened across his stellar debut, DRESSED UP LIKE NEBRASKA. Before long I had the pleasure of doing a 'phoner with him (special to Laurel: sounds dirty -- but all it means is I conducted a phone interview with him), and I found Josh to be humble, smart, and a pleasure to talk to. When he came to Chicago to play the Empty Bottle, my brother and I snatched him up after his show and took him back to my deck for a beer. He played us a few demos that would find their way onto his second album, and he proved to be as cool a guy in person as he'd been on the phone.

Anyway, he's five or six albums into his career now, and I've remained a fan throughout. But not too long ago I bought a copy of his latest, SUBTITULO, off iTunes, and the longer I've had it on heavy rotation in my headphones, the more I have to say: This is his masterwork. If you haven't checked out Josh yet, you really ought to. And if you're looking for a place to start, just about any song off SUBTITULO will do. Like heartache? Josh has you covered. Hopeful? Ditto. The guy's channeling something as real and beautiful and awful as life itself.

THANKS FOR NOTHING: What the heck is Lou Dobb's point? How hard is it to be a hand-wringer? What does he suggest we do? Here's a newsflash: The Middle East is one giant sandy Gray Area. There is no path without conflict. And blaming the U.S. or its citizens, or...whoever he's blaming...is not worth a hill of beans. Phooey on Louie.

UNCLE: I feel like I need to write this down -- either to make sense of it, or to purge it, or maybe to memorialize it so that someday we can all take a look at it and see that we lived through it.

June 1: Eileen's parents come to Chicago for a visit.

June 2: Eileen's mom falls and breaks her hip while walking downtown.

June 3: Eileen's mom has hip surgery at Northwestern Hospital.

June 4: Eileen's dad flies home to have a coronary catheterization. Eileen's mom stays here in the hospital.

June 7: Eileen's dad has his cororonary cath in Columbus, OH. They keep him overnight for observation. Eileen's mom moves to the rehab hospital here in Chicago.

June 8: Eileen's dad gets out of the hospital.

June 9: Eileen celebrates her 41st birthday.

June 12: My dad goes to the hospital in Detroit with chest pain and shortness of breath.

June 13: My dad undergoes a coronary cath.

June 14: My dad gets a pacemaker put in.

June 16: My dad passes a cardiac "stress test." My parents, aunt, uncle, cousins come to Chicago to attend a baby shower for my brother and his wife.

June 17: We host the baby shower at our house.

June 18: Eileen's mom is released from the hospital. Eileen accompanies her on a flight home to Columbus. Meanwhile, back in Chicgao, my mom starts running a high fever at my brother's house. It's Father's Day.

June 19: My mom goes to see a doctor, still here in Chicago. They admit her to Northwestern Hospital where she'll stay for three nights, fighting a kidney infection.

June 22: My mom is released, goes home to Michigan, still has fever.

June 24: My son C.J. begins having asthma symptoms during the night.

June 25: C.J. is admitted to Children's Hospital, where he'll spend two nights with his mother.

June 27: C.J. is released from the hospital.

A CROCK INDEED: I've said it from day one: I think the Duke lacrosse scandal is a pile of shit. I think the girl is lying. I think the guys were dealt a colossal injustice because of her lying. I think the university president who suspended the program should be sued. And I think it's a shame that "frat boy" is a pejorative in this day and age (granted, these guys were not in a fraternity, per se), and that being a white athlete at an elite college makes it okay for people to assume that you're a boor, a rapist, a misogynist, a racist, etc. I mean, why else did everyone rush to judgement on these guys?

If you want to be treated with respect, here's an idea: Don't hire yourself out as a stripper and an escort; don't perform "vibrator shows" for couples; don't visit off-campus houses full of drunk guys and take off all your clothes; don't get so drunk that you can't remember anything; don't adopt a stage name of "Precious." Etc.

If you're a bouncer at a bar, don't be surprised if you find yourself embroiled in fisticuffs. And if you're an exotic dancer on a college campus, don't be surprised if a lot of drunk-idiot guys behave inappropriately toward you.

I don't believe in hate crimes, and I don't believe in date rape. There is crime. There is rape. Everything else is politics. If a rape was committed at the lacrosse house -- that is, if a woman was physically forced to perform sex acts -- then I'm all for prosecuting the perpetrators. But thus far the overwhelming preponderance of evidence that has emerged pre-trial seems to suggest that this whole thing is, in the words of our esteemed Supreme Court Justice Thomas, a "modern-day lynching."

WHICHEVER WAY THE WIND POWER BLOWS: And now I read this Roger Ebert piece and I think I better see AN INCONVENIENT TRUTH. But seriously: Is global warming a great hoax, or doomsday? Are there really Republicans out there who'd rather have oil money today and let their grandchildren fry alive tomorrow? That's the part that sounds crazy to me. Are the oil companies truly made up of people for whom greed trumps all? In all my experiences dealing with soft drink marketers and pharma execs and entertainment people, I've yet to meet any of the jackals that are supposedly behind these enterprises. Actually, as I think about it, I've met many former Royal Dutch Shell guys, and they were kind, gentle, intelligent souls. Where...what...is the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but? Maybe "err on the side of caution" is the best path...? Color me perplexed. Guess I'll see the movie.

WHAT PASSES FOR AN EPIPHANY IN THIS SMALL ADDLED BRAIN: Here's a link to that HAPPINESS book I mentioned in my previous post. A very simple book, but full of little prizes. One thing that leaped out at me today: The past is gone, the future is not here yet (I'm wildly paraphrasing), and you've never yet met a present you can't deal with. Fearlessness is simply accepting the present, whatever it is.

Or something like that.

Reminds me so much of when I was running long distances. I could never conceive of running a dozen miles. But as long as I just tried to run this step, then that step, the miles just came to me. Sometimes I would feel terrible at the beginning of a run, and I'd think: I'll never make it 10 more miles. But once I gave up on that idea -- 10more miles -- and just tried to run 10 more steps, ten more seconds, ten more feet, etc. -- I always seemed to escape my mental rut. To run 12 miles, you have to have some faith. To live, same thing.

A LONG TIME AGO I USED TO POST MORE THAN ONCE A QUARTER: Global warming may well be a reality -- and based on just looking at the past 30 years, it's fact -- but articles like this make me wonder if all the shrill enviro-name-calling is just more politics, more of the left trying to claim the moral high ground rather than deal with reality. That said, there are clearly knee-jerks on the right who are equally guilty of head-in-the-sand, reactionary posturing. So...

...can't a whole bunch of us agree to be in the middle, trying to figure out what to do about real stuff?

Am reading a book called HAPPINESS right now, written by a Buddhist monk who happens to be the son of a recently departed, terribly influential French philosopher (which is neither here nor there). Anyway, the author relates a tale of a man who, called to summarize the whole of human history for a busy friend (who happens to rule the kingdom), after several tries comes up with: "They suffer."

That we will continue to suffer -- that the nature of man is to persevere, and yet to disintegrate, all at once -- is, to me, beyond dispute. That we are called to find compassion, to offer compassion to blunt the force of that suffering -- is equally apparent. What shape, compassion? What form, this anti-suffering?

Too much hand-wringing!

CENSORSHIP! Tough marketing strategy from the Dixie Chicks. "You're all a bunch of rubes! Now go buy our album." Apparently it's not working so well. Go figure.

FWAH-GRAH? NAH. I'm proud of Chicago.

CASI? NO! Sometimes I think Mike Tyson's is the most tragic story in all of sport. But John Daly gives him a run for his money.

CLIPPED: Now hockey is really dead to me.

TWO REASONS: I like the subject matter of this shot for two reasons. First, the people in it are the best. And second, you can see our Sanibel hideaway over Eileen's right shoulder. 

NEW BEST PAL: C.J. and Mac enjoy the dolphin cruise. 

VACATION: Granted, I haven't been blogging much for a while now. But right now -- right now -- I'm legitimately on vacation. Here's the sunrise we just hiked back up from. 

SWEET BEARD: Check out this graphic (below) that CNN uses to front its Moussaoui trial story today. Is it just me, or it kind of silly looking? I can't stop looking at it. 

GAMEWRECKER: Bud Selig is a tone-deaf idiot. Even he can't believe the stupid shit he says.

DR. DENIM: Another shot I love, "beaming C.J." Does this kid look happy or what? 

THE LAST RITES OF THE WELFARE STATE: Is this genius or a kind of utopianism? Regardless, I love radical rethinkings like this.

AND THE OTHER TWO: Mom and Mikey sometimes seem like they're attached at the hip. The boy is in a major "Mommy" phase.  

MY LITTLE DUDE: Holy cow, is this kid growing up fast. 

FEELING VERY WRONG: I've read Eric Haney before, and I respect his career. Here he is taking apart the war, the torture, the Bush legacy. It hurts to read it.

I haven't written much about Bush and the war in a while. What's to write? I believed in the war. And I believed in the president. I read, I researched as best I could, and I voted for what appears to have been a uniquely incompetent administration. That I did so with the best of intentions leaves me with a clear conscience, but a heavy heart.

IDOL PREDICTIONS? Wow, if this site is reliable it sort of takes some of the fun out of it.

MCCAIN! So where do I send my money for the McCain in '08 fund? At this point he's my guy. Looks like I'm not alone.

GOD OF FINLAND: I'm a big Conan O'Brien fan, so I really enjoyed this story about his recent weird trip to Finland.

INVENTOR OF VERBIAGE: Me and my pal Dick were having an argument at lunch over the proper pronunciation of Cannes, as in "the Cannes Film Festival." Having been there -- hmmph -- I told him it was pronounced "can." Being kind of an intellectual snobby type, he assured me it was pronounced "con." Anyway, being the kind of nitpicker-dick that I am, always having to be in the know and whatnot, I rushed back and proved my point and e-mailed him about it. Although he was unimpressed with my victory, he was especially taken with the new expression I invented to describe what I'd done. I told him I'd done my "Goo-diligence," meaning that I'd used Google to...you get it.

And I was so proud of myself, and feeling so protective of my new term, that I rushed here to show it off to y'all.

BTW, "verbiage" has only two syllables. And you don't "pronunciate" something, you just pronounce it.

I am such a grammar prig.

THRILLWAUKEE PART THREE: And so Licky woke up at 4AM and has been up since. Unbeknownst to me, that is. I did hear him start yelling around then, but I thought he put himself back to sleep. Turns out Eileen went in there and has been rocking him for the past three hours. I awoke with a full-blown, husky-voice cold. That'll be fun for my flight tonight. Full sinuses on a little Canadair regional jet. Wah. Meanwhile C.J.'s jonesin' for an early A.M. swim. And Eileen wants a Starbucks.

THRILLWAUKEE, PART TWO: And so we rejoin the story with C.J. down for a nap, Michael down for a nap, and Eileen's Marshall's bathing suit looking to spend the weekend in Chicago in its bag...

And let me backtrack for a second to recount how we found Michael this morning. It's 6:00AM, his standard waking time, and we hear a very nonstandard croaking sound coming from his room. Nothing scary, but he sounds a little off. And well he should, since a quick inspection reveals the kid is wearing what is essentially a snot mache mask, with bloody accents all around his nostrils where he's fingernailed his discontent. Just gross. Snotbubbles rising and falling in his nostrils like a lizard's flamboyant throat thrust out in the sunlight, out and in, in and out. Yucky.

And so it's midday now, and our maniac friends and their family are arriving in Milwaukee, and I'm about to make the call that says we're OUT, we won't make it, when...

...C.J. bursts from his room and shouts, "Let's go to the hotel!" He's reborn, animated, cheeks aflush with health and anticipation. "Vamos!"

What the heck. We retrieve a clean-nosed Licky from his bed, he too wearing the glow of rediscovered health, start shoving diapers and sandals and DVDs into my couch-on-wheels, and we head-ass up to Milwaukee.

And it's been worth it. We have a giant suite with an adjoining bedroom. Licky's sprawled out in a pack-and-play next-door, and the other three of us are in here amidst left-over pizza and french fries and Kirkland Shiraz. Our friends and their frenzied progeny have just retired to their own rooms, and we're set for a 7AM rendesvous down at the water-park.

And there's a Starbucks in the lobby!

And C.J. just walked up and said, "Daddy, what planet are we on now?"

I often wonder that very thing. I'm pretty sure it's just called...

Planet Kid.

THRILLWAUKEE, PART ONE: I don't post much of late, but this seems like a good time to sling one out there into the ethers.

We had this big plan this weekend, where our maniac family and a few other maniac families were gonna head up to the Milwaukee Hilton and exploit the waterpark therein. Slides. Hot tubs. Zero-depth mayhem. Trouble was when we woke up this morning Licky was a sinus-addled mess, and C.J. was a grump. No matter. We forged ahead, even reserving a second, adjoining room so that Licky would have his own dark crib-room to mewl and puke in (reference, anyone?) as he pleased. Alas, that all changed when, near noon, C.J. clutched his tummy, screamed "Poopies are coming fast!" and stormed up the stairs to unleash rampant diahrrhea. "I want to go to bed right now," he cried, clutching his belly. "My bottom has a bug in it."

And so he literally put himself to bed, climbing in under the covers and racing off to dreamland in record time.

It seemed like all was lost then, Eileen's new Marshalls' discount suit all for naught.

Oh, shit, the pizza's here. To be continued.

I'D GIVE THIS ONE TO MIKE SCOTT: What happened was my brother Casey innocently asked me for some lyrics -- said he was having a drought of sorts, and asked if I would fire some stuff his way to stoke the flames. Anyway, the stuff is flowing. And this one I like:

THE SECRET OF LOVE
----------------------------
She liked to lie
but she didn't know it
She was made of evil things
but she didn't show it

She took me in
Then put me out
I never loved her...
Who's lying now?

She was full of sunshine
but smelled like rain
She gave me pleasure
that felt like pain

I thought I loved her
What did I know
Thought I was tied up
when I was free to go..


(chorus)
What kind of love makes you a prisoner?
What kind of lover breaks you down?
Why is it that I feel abandoned
even when she's still around...


She was just a schoolgirl
dressed like a lady
Knew how to charm me
by actin' shady

Never intended
to crush my spirit
I kept her secret
Want you to hear it...


(chorus)
What kind of love makes you a prisoner?
What kind of lover breaks you down?
Why is it that I feel abandoned
even when she's still around...

'NOTHER HOKEY SONG: I also hear this one as a country tune:

GO TO BED IN TROUBLE
--------------------

Looking back on the summers I spent
I learned a lot of lessons
But I never knew what they meant
I would wake up wore out
I'd go to bed all wide awake
I couldn't keep track of all the girlfriends
or of all the drugs I'd take


(chorus)
Goddamn
that was then
I must have been a whole lot younger when
I could go to bed in trouble
wake up and start all over again

(Now I'm) ...Chasing away all the mistakes that I made
Making friends with all my enemies
so I don't have to be afraid
I'm looking forward to the future
Got a purpose to my life
I'm trying to shake loose all the ghosts
from me so I can find a wife

(chorus)
Goddamn
that was then
I must have been a whole lot younger when
I could go to bed in trouble
wake up and start all over again

I have a notion, you might call it conjecture
That all my past lives and my missteps
were just practice for my future
And when I reach it then I'll finally understand
that all those lessons were what helped me
become a huband and a man

(bridge)
And if I should falter...
make a mistake along the way
I hope that I'll remember
everyday is a new day

(chorus)
Goddamn
that was then
I must have been a whole lot younger when
I could go to bed in trouble
wake up and start all over again

I'M SURE THIS HAPPENS TO YOU: I woke up writing country songs this morning. Like, for example, this one:

(intro)
There are two things to write a song about
one's falling in love
the other is falling out

If you're alive
and your heart is beating
I know I don't have to tell you
this falling out of love
eventually will kill you

But the lucky thing is
that by the very same same token
you can come right back to life
when those magic words are spoken

(chorus)
"I love you" will make you whole again
"I love you" can correct you
"I love you" superglues your heart
"I love you" can protect you

If you find yourself down on the floor
after love has taken leave
there's just one thing that you can do
say the words you would receive

(chorus)
"I love you" saves a drowning man
"I love you" dulls the knife
"I love you" pulls you in the boat
"I love you" saves your life

BACK IN THE BLOGGING SADDLE AGAIN: Start in the middle, see where you end up...

My four-year-old, C.J., has decided he likes shirts with nothing on 'em. As in, "Daddy, that's got stuff in the middle. I want an 'x-in-the-middle-shirt." Huh? "X-in-the-middle means nothing. Nothing in the middle. Just plain."

Once again, the kid is taking after his paternal grandfather, notorious for his love of subtle, understated, or non-existent branding on his apparel. Apparel. Heh. Funny to think of my dad's navy-blue and khaki combos as apparel!

Last night C.J. told us he wants to "get bigger and be a drummer on T.V." He also hopes his whiskers come out of his chin soon. Meanwhile Mikey is starting to talk. Scratch that. Mikey has been blabbering since birth. This kid talks nonsense every waking minute, some combo of German and an Asian dialect. But lately his forceful vowels and consonants are starting to make some sense. The kid is nothing of not emphatic. Every utterance comes with an exclamation caboose. "Nana!" (That means banana, for now.) "Nanny!" (That can mean his nanny or his mom.) "Da! Da da!" (Yours truly, as in "get your dumb ass over here right now, father o' mine.") "D'oh!" (Down.) "Essay!" (This one. That one. From the Spanish.) "Oh, baby!" (I hurt myself. I'm sad. Pity me.)

That's enough for now. More later from the ORD Red Carpet, as I prep for my Colorado City jaunt.

SEEMS FITTING FOR A SUNDAY: My pal Trisha has prodded me to write something, and although I don't have anything new right now I thought I'd post something I wrote a while back that I liked:

We feel terrible when someone dies, in part because we feel that we have, in some way, died too. We might even say things like, “A part of me has died.” Which part are we referring to? Are we not whole people? What we may mean instead is that we are part of the person who has died...and they are part of us. And so we feel as if we, too, have died, are dying, and faced with that we are doubly afraid and unsettled.

Many of us are wrestle with the fact that our friends and family – and ourselves, at some point -- will die and be forgotten, will be left alone to disintegrate...and eventually to disappear entirely. We worry that life is finite, or as Alan Watts once referred to it, a brief flash of light between two periods of infinite darkness.

But there is in death the possibility for a kind of miracle, if we look for it. It's much like what the Christians have been saying for two millennia: We are indeed capable of engineering resurrection. By embracing our dead loved one's memory and essence, and by figuratively carrying them out of sacred space -- the church, the temple, the meditation hall -- with us when we leave it, by living out the full potential and potency of their inspiration, by wrapping ourselves in their soul and spirit...we can almost literally lift them up from the dead. They ride with us, in us, out of sacred space and into life again.

While I don't believe I'll ever see a dead person stand up and walk days after her death, I do believe in the resurrection that a community of friends and family can provide -- for the departed, and for themselves. And I believe that is not simply a possibility but a responsibility of those left behind to lift life up to its highest purpose, and to walk on as if buoyed by the vaporous spirit of the departed. I believe that by carrying deceased souls with us, we are ourselves lifted up and made lighter.

THEY ALSO COULD HAVE CALLED IT A BLONCHO: Check out the slanket!

KRAUTHAMMER ON THE CARTOONS: This guy is becoming a hero of mine. Check it out.

FREE ADVICE FOR THE DEMS: Somewhere way back when on this blog -- and were I a responsible blogger I'd go back and find it and link to it -- I recall observing that the Bush Administration's key vulnerability was not to be found in their ideology, but in their competence, or lack thereof. I remember fearing that Bush 43 simply wasn't smart enough to do the job, all the while hoping that his henchmen -- Powell, Cheney, Rumsfield, Rice, etc. -- could cover for his lack of intellect.

I recently had a similar conversation with Dem friends. In light of all the revelations about the inefficient prosecution of the war, the management (mismanagement) of Katrina, and the ham-handed dealings with K Street, the Dems need not focus on ideological differences. In fact, they can focus on what unites us.

Here's what I think the Dem message ought to be:

"In many ways, we're just like the Republicans. We love our country, and we'll work to support it, fight to defend it, and stay up all night to fix it when it breaks. We believe in freedom, in equality, in democracy, and in the family. We feel an obligation to help those in need, to stand behind our allies, and to be a good global citizen.

"We care about the economy AND the environment, and we know that you can't save one and neglect the other. We believe our richest and our poorest citizens must act responsibly and live by the same rules; and that people of all creeds, colors, and socioeconomic groups have not just a practical responsibility to live in peace with one another, but also a moral imperative to love one another.

"So you see, when you consider Democrats and Republicans, see that by and large we're aiming at the same things. And yet if you look back at the years this country lived under a Democratic administration, under the leadership of Bill Clinton and Al Gore...we actually did more just than believe in these things. We did more than just aim at them. We lived them. These beliefs were our reality, not simply our rhetoric.

"In our hearts, we're all patriots. We're all philanthropists. We're all spiritual people, in one way or another. In our hearts, we're not Democrats or Republicans, but merely citizens. Human beings. All doing the very best we can.

"We believe that George Bush is a good man. We believe he has done his best. And we wish him well and thank him for his service. Now, as we move forward, the question to you, fellow Americans, is not which party has the best ideals. It's which party can best lead us to the ideals we all share. Which party can not simply aim, but truly hit the target."

RED CARPET CONFIDENTIAL: Here I am in the Red Carpet Lounge again, and it dawns on me: Some of my readers -- like those in Hamilton, Ohio and Canton, Michigan, for example -- don't get out much. So, ladies and gentlemen, non-travelers especially, here's an undercover cellphone shot of the United Red Carpet Lounge at O'Hare, C Terminal. Pretty cool, eh? Actually, in a life of nonstop activity, two kids, etc., it's kind of an oasis of calm. I'm sipping a free cappucino and listening to THE VIEW on the TV nearby. A man in a business suit and New Balance sneakers is pacing while he talks on this cell phone. And a lot of tired looking people are absently looking at laptops and newspapers. I like it here. 

LICKY! It's been a while since I've featured my younger guy, the inimitable Michael Lee Hess, better known as "Licky." He's nearly 15 months, and boy is it a fun time. He has an everpresent grin, his own unintelligible lexicon (part German, part Japanese, as best we can determine), and a very discerning palate (he's basically on a toddler Atkins diet -- lots of meat and fat, no love for the carbs). Where his brother C.J. was a drummer from birth, drumming on everything around him and thrilling to drum sets, drum solos, and drummers on TV, Licky is a dancer. This kid has the get-down in his soul. He can already work a boom box, turn on his favorite songs, and then drop and shake his big butt to the beat.

 
 

BOSTON! My son C.J. has decided that the greatest sports team in the whole world is the Boston Red Sox. We have no idea where he got this idea, but he's adamant about it. Perhaps it's simply because he has red socks, they are Red Sox, and voila! Remember when life was that easy?

 

FILE UNDER BIG WHOOP: Does anybody really care? God, this guy has to be one of the most self-involved folks of all time. Go get a job, for God's sake.

PICK MY PROFILE PIC: My sis-in-law is griping about my profile picture. She preferred the one from my high-school talent show, where I was jumping off the amplifier wearing a camouflage mask, to the one where I'm all old and smiley. What happened was that old jumping one was hosted on a website I no longer pay to maintain, so it up and disappeared. In order to stick up a new one, I have to send the pic to some server somewhere, like I've done with this post...

I'm thinking I might use this one. Eh?

OWIE! The bandaged appendage. Tough to type! 

LIVE FROM HOLLYWOOD: This trip is mishap central. I oughta be on candid camera.

First I forget my underwear. Then I forget my computer. Then I buy the uberpants. (Wearing 'em right now, rolled down. Chilling on Robertson Blvd. after the world's best veggie burger at the Newsroom, waiting to head over to Paramount. Willing to bet I'm the only dude on this track flying the Chereskins. Awww, yeah.) And then this morning, rushing to get out the door, I jam my hand back into my awesome, super-compartmentalized dopp kit, and...

Holy crap, I'm bleeding everywhere. Lanced three big cuts into my fingertip, each ridiculous Sensor blade ripping its own signature swatch out of my pointer. Man, fingertips, they can bleed, especially when you freak out and wave 'em around in shock and in pain. My room must've looked all OJ to the cleaning folks.

And so here I sit, big pants and band-aids, just hoping the paparazzi don't find me...

ON BUYING GIANT BRIEFS: Desperate, I wander down to the Westin South Coast gift shop (or is it shoppe?) last night. The small Asian lady is closing up, but she lets me in. Almost immediately I spot an odd display of toiletries, makeshift luggage, and yep, single-pack "Chereskin" briefs. There's L and XL, and on the package they look more or less like my beloved Calvin Klein briefs, discovered in the '80s (natch) and worn to this day (mixed with boxers). I grab the Ls, because I'm not a total fat-ass, and I take 'em up to the counter. The little Asian proprietress starts giggling.

"Oh!" she exclaims. "Oh, ho-ho! Oh-ho-ho-ho!"

She's giggling uncontrollably now, somewhere between humor and discomfort. She starts nodding.

"Good!" she says. "Oh-ho-ho-ho!" Nodding. "You need!"

Just bag up the briefs and let me be on my way, lady.

I retreat to my room and try on my new briefs. They're diaper-huge. The front of 'em is the friggin' Hancock Building (whoa! pun alert!) it's so hi-rise. They start at my crotchular region and extend well over my belly button. I look like an ad for Powerdorks Anonymous. Sure, no one will see me in my briefs. But I'll know. Plus if my shirt rides up at all folks will wonder if I'm Mormon.

I fold down the waistband. Not as bad. Not great. Won't win any Marcus Shenkenberg look-alike contest. But they'll do.

NICE HYGIENE: I have no underwear on this trip. I simply omitted underwear from my luggage. Call me "Commando." Discovered it this morning. Black sweater? Check. Black slacks? Check. Black shoes? Check. Black socks? Check. Underwear of any color? Nein.

And so I feel a little naughty today. And apparently I'll continue to feel naughty tomorrow...on accounta...

I left my computer at Microsoft after my presentation. I did not discover this until I was returning my rental car at Sea-Tac airport. I took the car back out, drove it back to the campus and, escorted by two Microsoft security guards, recovered the computer. I missed my flight to L.A. but caught the next one. And so by the time I arrived here...all the stores were closed.

I remain underwearless.

I heard the SOTU speech was blah, lackluster, no news, platitudinous. Too bad. Poor dumb Bush.

Just saw Hillary Rosen stumping for the dems. Or I should say spinning for the Dems. Never liked her when she was the unrealistic and harsh voice of the RIAA as they sued music consumers. Anyway, seeing her on the Dem side makes me feel better about not being on the Dem side anymore.

I won't vote for Hillary. Won't.

I've read ongoing analysis about how McCain can never be nominated.

I wish I had underwear. Or at least more pants.

ON TRAVEL AND POOP: Monday morning. I awoke with a random headache -- because, man, I only had like a couple glasses of that rose (think ro-zay; don't know how to make the accent over the 'e') -- but none of the pervading "sick" of last week. The Z-Pac (not to be confused with the 2Pac) has helped, clearly. Now I'm at Starbucks scotch-taping expense reports and working the e-mail. Headed to ORD in a few hours to catch a flight to SEA for a day, then on to LAX until Thursday.

A few fun C.J. scenes of late:

"Daddy, what's it called when I have a really fast poop?"

"Diarrhea."

"Oh. What about when I have a slow poop?"

"I just call that regular poop."

"Eggrahlah poop?"

"Ummm..."

"Egg roll poop?"

"Yeah, close enough."

"Daddy, I hope I have an eggroll poop soon."

And then there was this one:

"Mommy, will you change my poopy diaper?"

"C.J., you're almost four, it's time for you to poopy in the potty. Mommy's getting tired of poopy diapers."

(thinking about it)

"Mommy...will God change my poopy diaper?"

FIXED? THINKIN' YEAH: Ya gotta love a decisive doc. I'm in there for like 30 seconds, she's poking around, and then: "This is a bacterial infection run rampant. Z-Pac, 800 milligrams of ibuprofen thrice a day, and a steroidal nose spray."

Here's hoping my massive influx of drugs will have me riding high on the flight to Seattle on Monday.

WHAT STARTLED LOOKS LIKE: Yep, this is it. Expulsion of air. Wide eyes. Stomach acid marching up the old Esophageal Trail... 

START THE MUSIC: Today's an all-day meeting, starting in moments and running straight through until 6:30PM. Then I rush to the airport, dump the rental car, and try and get my butt home before midnight. Long day!

I no longer marvel that people can do this, can find the energy and will to get through a work day that starts at 7:30AM and doesn't end until almost the next day. I see it nearly every week. What I do still marvel at is that people choose to live like this. Given the wide range of available options, I'm literally startled sometimes -- as in, "Huh?" -- that there exists a class of folks, among which you may count me, that keeps putting quarters in this particular carousel.

WOKE UP THINKING: Actually had some decent sleep last night, and my throat is about 50% as raw today as yesterday. I like to think that my gargling with saltwater ("yes, can you please send up two salt shakers to room 1131? great!"), noshing on Robitussin menthol lozenges, staying regular with the Advil, and begging off dinner last night so I could just take it easy were all contributing factors. I am beating this whatever-it-is! Of course, chances are it's just that the virus is running its course, or that my bodies defenses have finally discovered a more favorable strategy. Germs are, of course, simply little terrorists who seek to engage the corpus maximus in asymmetrical warfare. And the thing that's good to remember is that these little germs usually lose time and again...

...until they finally prevail, of course.

Nothing...nothing...nothing...lasts forever, now does it?

Odd that, somehow, that simple thought manages to be both the source of greatest comfort and stress all at once.

SAY IT KEANU-STYLE -- WHOA! Lebron James' mom, in addition to being a nutter, is also two years...wait for it...*younger* than me!

REFERRAL GENIUS: In my hotel's in-room GUEST SERVICES DIRECTORY, it says:

Doctor/Dentist: An "At Your Service" associate can refer you to a nearby doctor or dentist.

Wow! Great. I'm still feeling pretty crappy, and I decide that if I feel this way tomorrow I'm going to the doc. So I stop by the front desk on my way in from an evening reception.

"I'm thinking about seeing a doctor tomorrow. Do you have a list of doctors you refer guests to?"

"Huh?"

"I think I may want to see a doctor tomorrow, and in the book in the room it says..."

"Are you sick?"

"Well, I have this lingering sore throat, and I've had a fever off and on, and...look, do you have a list of doctors?"

"There's a hospital nearby."

"Okay, so you don't really have a list..."

"Mostly we just tell people to go over to the hospital. They have doctors there."

"Uh, okay. Thanks."

IN MY PATH FOR A REASON: I'm lucky enough to be working on a corporate project with a playwright by the name of Alex Dinelaris. Seems like a very good guy, talented, upbeat. Best of all, he's about my age, and he was telling me this morning about how just a few short years ago he was a guy that felt he ought to writing plays, but he hadn't really put it all together yet. All of a sudden the stars aligned, he made the commitment, took some time off to write, finished a play...and now finds himself with a play ready to open on Broadway this summer with Danny Aiello and Rosie O'Donnell in the leads. Inspiring!

YES! I have been immortalized in the Urban Dictionary.

BOO HOO: Sitting in a Hertz Business Center at Dallas-Fort Worth airport, just about to launch my rental Taurus or 500 or whatever they give me at Richardson, Texas. Unbelievably, I'm sick again. Very sore throat and body aches. Did the strep come back? Gonna look into a doc-in-the-box by my hotel. Sucks.

By the way, does this win my most-boring-post-ever?

ON GENIUS: Here's MSNBC's pretty solid take on the glory that was the first episode of SKATING WITH CELEBRITIES.

EVERYTHING I WANT FROM TV: You know, I thought AMERICAN IDOL was the most entertaining show on TV, but after only about 15 minutes of this SKATING WITH CELEBRITIES show, I gotta say:

Goddamn! How can I be sitting here laughing like a loon, grinning like a baboon at this show! Bruce Jenner in some kind of admiral's getup! This Sir John guy affecting the grumpy Simon role! This is just too much.

I think I love it.

(Addendum: For the love of God, Willis (as in "Whatchew talkin' 'bout Willis") is about to skate! From Rikers to the rink! I love it! I love it!)

SLICE OF LIFE: There's something in the air at my hotel.

The place is packed with some serious yahoos. For a second, I thought I might be among my NASCAR brethren, this horde of rural-seeming, puffy men hell-bent on whooping it up and/or squiring their wide-eyed families through the large hotel lobby. But these folks, salt of the earth and all, are just a little too...down-market for NASCAR. These are some odd folk. I started looking at their name tags, trying to make out the logo. Hmmmm. Looked like it said they were with the PARK CONGRESS. Maybe that's it. These are national park-type people. Wilderness folk. Then I saw this sign:

Pfizer Animal Health & Hormel Happy Hour, 6:30PM

Then I stared harder at the name tags: Pork Congress. Pork. As in porcine. Piggies!

"Excuse me," I say to a man in the elevator. "Does your name tag say 'Pork Congress?'"

"Yes, indeed," he says. "We're pig people."

SPECIAL TO CASEY THE ENTERTAINER: A-ight, Case! Way to go! I'm sure Mom "had a chuckle." 

WHAT HE SAID: "Writing is a form of therapy; sometimes I wonder how all those who do not write, compose or paint can manage to escape the madness, melancholia, the panic and fear which is inherent in a human situation." - Graham Greene

WHY IS EXERCISE STUCK IN THE GYM? I'm standing at the Baggage Claim yesterday, waiting and waiting to retrieve my suitcase (so much for the PRIORITY tag they always stick on it due to my frequent-flier status), and it hits me: What about a public exercise movement?

Why can't I just drop down right there and knock out some push-ups and some sit-ups? Why can't I do some step-ups on the baggage carousel or knock out some dips on the chairs nearby? Why not?

Well, I'd look like a goof, right? But why is it that we don't feel ashamed when we do unhealthy things in public, like knock down a Cin-A-Bun or smoke a cigarette or polish off 73 frozen margaritas? Why are those behaviors more socially acceptable?

So what about it? Should I launch publicexercise.blogspot.com and document examples of people exercising in public, making their waiting time in doctors' offices and supermarket lines and so forth add up to something healthy?

The answer is no, no more blogs. But I think I'm onto something, nonetheless...

THIS & THAT: As I mentioned in my COMMENTS, I somehow had the big Mo to head down to the workout room last night upon arrival in Minneapolis. In typical me fashion, I had a bit of a spaz-out down there, using the treadmill, the elliptical, the weights and weight machines, the pool, and the hot tub. Had a nice dinner of local walleye and some veggies, and I slept pretty well. I also made the mistake of making a late-night run to the local Borders store which, according to their website, should have been open until 11PM. Alas, when I arrived there entirely frozen (no, Mom, I did not bring a hat or gloves) at 9:55PM they told me I had five minutes to thaw out on accounta: "We're closing, bub." Nice. I had head-freeze on the walk back which was quickly remedied by a big to-go glass of the house Zin. And...scene.

Just finished Michael Collins' LOST SOULS, a book I grabbed on a whim in Santa Monica 'cause I liked the cover and one of the blurbs on the back. And wow! This guy can write his ass off. Sort of David Gates meets Michael Connelly. Artistically sound, rather bleak prose that organically pulls the reader from page to page like a Grisham...with none of the aftertaste. A definite model for the kind of novel I hope to write.

PROOF THERE IS RACISM IN THIS COUNTRY: New Orleans mayor Ray Nagin is really something else. Can you imagine if the mayor of some super-white city...like, say Minneapolis or something, where I am right now, and where it's so goddamn windy and cold they oughta shut the whole city down until spring...I digress...can you imagine if the mayor of some white-guy city said, "We want to keep this city the only way it can be, white as snow!" (Yep, snow. Works for Minneapolis.) It's a wonder he didn't start a chant of "No more honkeys!"

YOU'RE JEALOUS: Off to icy Minneapolis for the rest of the week!

BULLY FOR SULLY! The new AndrewSullivan.com launched today under the auspices of the Time.com mothership. My initial take: Splendid. Jolly good. Love it.

FUNNY? YES. SMART? NO. I love Letterman. I'm a fan. I'm more of a Letterman fan than an O'Reilly fan by a long stretch. But Letterman comes off so badly and O'Reilly comes off so well in this clip, that I have to wonder if my allegiance is in the wrong place.

GO WEST: This blogger is bound for glory, this blogger. Or at least bound for Los Angeles.

Repeat after me: Monday night, Anaheim; Tuesday night, West Hollywood; Wednesday night, Santa Monica; Thursday night, arrive in Chicago around 10:00PM. Long week.

Both boys have strep throats; and I woke up with a golfball in my throat this morning. Luckily my doc phoned in an amoxicillin order, so all is hopefully on the mend, or at least headed that way.

THE BOOGEYMAN CHECKS HIS CLOSET FOR CHUCK NORRIS: If you haven't yet seen the "Top Thirty Facts About Chuck Norris," you've gotta check 'em out. High, high comedy. One of my favorites: "Chuck Norris does not sleep. He waits."

GOOD ADVICES: A good pal just reminded me of something I already knew: To be a writer, write.

Sort of like, to be a vegetarian, eat vegetables. To be a meditator, sit your ass down. Etc.

'NOTHER HAIR FLASHBACK: Here's more of the mid-college "new wave" look, as forwarded to me from an old friend. I think I look a bit like a lady. Oh, well. 

WHAT'S ALREADY STICKING IN MY CRAW IN '06: I wake up thinking, "I want to be a writer." Some mornings, or more likely some nights after wine, that thought twists into, "I am a writer."

Of course I'm not.

I proudly told one of my sisters-in-law that one of the great things about me is I know what I'm good at, and I know what I suck at. I have a healthy sense of shame, I told her, a filter that allows me to "know better" before I run out (into the marketplace, the town square, the public space) and embarass myself. I have a real and functioning governor on my own idiocy. Keeps me from making a fool of myself. And she pointed out, in so many words, that that same governor is what stands between me and really taking a chance, putting myself out there in a way that I might fall, might fly, might feel really and fully alive.

Doorway to greatness? Governor's minding it. Why bother?

Clearly I've grown older, and with age and experience I've grown more reasonable and responsible. Heck, look how nice my hair looks now!

:-)

And yet...as I've grown I've had to shed a layer of skin (along with all the hair). I used to think that "skin" was just the shadow part of me that was reckless and selfish. No big whoop. Farewell and such.

Now I wonder if maybe there weren't some strands of my soul wrapped up in what I stepped out of .

Wow. Talk about a "Happy New Year" post! Off to the soul-searching races in '06!

MORE HAIR, LESS WEIGHT: Eventually I lost some weight and grew some hair. This is pretty much how I've looked, plus or minus a few pounds a quarter-inch of hair or so, for the past five years.